I can't wait to see you

'Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes,
The one you had for me before we said our goodbyes'


Yarn is totally my drug of choice.
So many pretty colors, so many textures.
And it makes me giddy to have new yarn and a new hooky project.
I made myself a vest.
Its a blueish gray color and i love it.

And Danielle's birthday was Thursday.
She turned 4 and had a great little party.

The cake was 6 colorful layers making a yummy 'moist' cake.

Which eventually toppled over but was nummy either way.

Til Next time.

In any other world You could tell the difference

'And let it all unfurl
Into broken remnants
Smile like you mean it.
And let yourself go'


I wanted to blog but I have nothing I want to say.
The things plaguing my mind are hurtful.
Things I try my best not to remember,
not to think about.

It's hard.
Sometimes its all I will think about for the day.
But mostly it infects my mind at night.

Night is the loneliest part of the day.
It's cruel it will hug you and shroud you in its comfort.
And then it will tug at you until it makes you feel.
And you will you'll feel every ounce of the emotions and memories you hide from.

You'll lay in bed eyes wide open,
wondering what ifs and if onlys and why nots.
And no one will ever really answer those questions.
Questions you can only ask of yourself and to the darkness that is night.
For others will think you crazy for still feeling.

How do you stop feeling?
How do you control what you think about what you dwell on.
If you have this magical way of thinking, please share.

'Don't wake up, wont wake up, can't wake up.
No don't wake me up,
Don't wake up, wont wake up, can't wake up.
No, don't wake me up'

Til Next Time

I'm not gonna write you a love song..

'Cause you asked for it, cause you need one, you see'

Disney ruined love for me.
Growing up believing princes found princesses and saved them.
Believing love was something magical,
That you get that pitter patter, heart skippy feeling.
You don't, Disney lied.
The princesses the magic all of it was just lies.

Love is hard and more often then not it ends in hurt.
And then that hurt jades people from feeling..
Feeling that ultimate high that erratic pulse beating faster,
take your breath away, faint, flushed faced, never let this moment end feeling.

That is a feeling we as a whole should strive for.
But its something you have to work for.
Love isn't easy, sorry Disney lied.
Love is hard and work and dealing with someones crap.
As they deal with yours.

But when all that work dies and falls apart then what?
You sit there feeling like shit, moping, crying.
Having people tell you, you can do better.
And it sucks and its the last thing you want to hear.

But they love you.
And if people realized right there that they're loved by their friends and family.
Then the pain wouldn't hurt so bad, it would sub-side quicker.

I have five people who have made this easier on me.
And for that I will be forever grateful.
So thank you and I love you guys too.
<3

Til Next Time

We are Young

'We are strong. We're not looking for where we belong. We're not cool. We are free.'

Did I mention mustache May?
Most likely not huh.
Well mustache May was this Facebook group for guys.
Where all month they grow mustaches and take photos to show each other.

Well.. heh if you have friends like mine.. then the guys should run



Sexiest mustaches ever, am I right?

Til Next Time.

Don't Get Me Wrong I'm Glad You Asked,

"But tonight's about me and an old memory"

Today.. well yesterday since its like 1am, was pretty good.
I have two things to share with you, one old and one just finished.
I'm pretty sure they're numbers 20 and 21 of my 50 for 2010.

First up the old. I finished this months ago and am just getting around to posting it.
This is a baby blanket I made for my friends Shawn and Kendall.
I honestly couldn't find a pattern for this, but i'm sure i'm not the first to try it.
I started with the intent to make this using nothing but small grannies, but I quickly became bored.
And grouped the few grannies up and made a large granny around them.
But I got bored again and ended up switching between it being one large granny
to adding smaller grannies as a border.
In the end this is what I ended up with.
I think its spiffy and i'm very proud of it.

And next my latest completed project.
My god daughters birthday is next Thursday and I saw something shed love.
So I found the pattern.
And tackled it in one day.
A few hours at night then a few in morning.
Its pink because she loves pink and I hope she enjoys this.
This is the second clothing item i've ever made so i'm very proud of this as well.

Isn't that adorable edging?

Til next time.

Little darlin' come with me

"Wont you share my load?

From the dark end of the street to the bright side of the road."

I have a couple days before I can get my yarn.
Which is sad but its okay for now.
I was highly bored last night.

When that happens well things come outta my mind.
They slitter through my veins to the tips of my fingers til they escape.
With blots of ink, splashes of color, or the swift movement of hook over yarn.


They blur when enlarged.
To view them better i'd suggest hitting up my Facebook
Or clicking on the image.
Til next time.

Like a drunk in midnight choir

"I've tried in my way to be free"

I'm excited. I found a new crochet project that I want to do as a gift.
So i'll need to buy some beautiful yarn and even a new crochet hook.
Isn't it funny how something so small could bring so much excitement and giddiness?

I got bored with drawing. It happens, i'll pick it back up eventually.
I always do. Same with writing.

I typed five names into the etsy search.
Here is one item from the first page of each results.

Nadine: Lamp work glass disc set $16

Sara: Vintage Pendant Ring $20

Dave: Rock em' Sock em' Robot screen prints $25

Carly: Gratitude Vintage Sparrow Necklace $26

Natalie: Matte Gold Cherry Blossom Necklace $20

Til next time.

Photos and Adventure.

"I am easily bored and made to believe a part of you will never be a part of me."

There's been a lot of things that have been making me happy as of late.
My friends, my cousins. The car, the chance for adventure.
But now the cars messed up cause it wasn't checked completely.
So the adventure sits on the back burner for now.
Which is sad cause I miss it already and its only been about a day.

Til the next time.
I will most defiantly be posting photos of my finished bedroom.

Love

I'm in love.
With the feel of the air blowing through the car window.
With the smile that is on my face almost everyday.
With the smell of rain, or fresh cut grass.
Or with the people who make every day this awesome little show.

I'm in love with the fact that i'm still me.
With the idea of something new.
With the feel of the pencil hitting the paper.
With the slick movement of yarn over my bright metal hooks.

I'm in love with the music.
With the season, the sun, the smiles.
With the taste of a good cold beer in the heat.
With the melted ice cream that drips over the cone.

Drawing, drawing, drawing.

"He's got looks that books take pages to tell"
So i've totally done it. I started to draw again. This time, people. And i've never drawn people before.
Sure i've drawn comic versions of people but not straight up people.

And it all started with this:

This is Nadine and its horrible.

Next came a self portrait, its horrible but better-ish.
Followed by Nadine, Earl, Niki, Maria, and a random chick from the internet.
Comments are welcome.
Just remember i'm a beginner and not that great.
Til next time.